dear Joshua...

as I awake
my heart does ache
as I miss you being here
I think of the day
you were took away
the day you disappeared

for years I have struggled now
to stand right through the pain
and the only thing that keeps me strong
is thinking of holding you again.

I love you dear joshua
I am sorry for any mistakes I made
I hold you deep within my heart
to hold you I do crave.

I wonder where you are right now
I wonder if you suddenly stop and feel
this overwhelming love I have for you
I hope you feel it for real.

my heart is realy aching now
as it aches my love for you grows
I feel you loving me too my son
and what that means..heaven knows.

as angels of heaven surround you
and guide you through your days
I know you know I love you
in oh so many ways..

thankyou God for Joshua